Who am I? Why am I doing everything humanly possible to change the world? What gives me the audacity or chutzpah (a new word I learned recently from someone describing some of my efforts) to believe that I can change the world? I don’t believe I have the answers to life’s greatest questions. I simply wanted to let everyone know more about me. I hope this gives you insight into myself and, hopefully, gives you the motivation to drive your own changes.
To begin, this is not a biography. This is more like a dating website profile. What I mean is I want to find people with similar goals. I’m hoping to connect with people. All kinds of people. Not just those who are like me. I need those who disagree with me or know more than me or those I can teach. I’m hoping to change and to change people.
Who am I? Simply put..I am human. Not close to perfect. Everything I have learned I’ve learned from mistakes. A little more in depth answer, my name is Lilith Rayne. Since I’m now in my early 30’s I feel like I am playing “catch-up” on a regular basis. This is due to the aforementioned mistakes. The most monumental was not being accepting of myself. I didn’t accept the fact that I am bisexual and transgender until last year. These realizations set everything in motion. It let loose a deluge of emotions and a desire to help.
My home, as of now, is a town called Pocatello in southeast Idaho. Which last year went through an internal struggle to keep a non-discrimination ordinance in place for our LGBT community. I was part of a group pushing to get people out to vote this coming May. (Granted I played a minimal role.)
Why am I doing everything humanly possible to change the world? I have no other choice. This is not my job. I work as technical support for a television provider. Everyday, I sit and talk to people who complain about the TV not working. Everyday, I hold myself back from asking them, “Did you eat today? “ I wait for them to reply that of course they ate. To which I respond, “Nearly 870 million people of the 7.1 billion people in the world, or one in eight, were suffering from chronic undernourishment in 2010-2012.” Then I ask, “Are you able to hug your spouse? Simply kiss them whenever you feel like.” Again, I wait for the reply. Afterward, I comeback, “Good because India just kept it illegal to be homosexual.” “Your TV does not seem so fucking important now does it!” Yeah, I have been a little angry about some aspects of life…I’m working on that.
What gives me the audacity the believe I can change the world? I can’t. Not a single person on this planet can change the world. People do not realize that the world leaders do not hold true power. All of their power derives from the citizens that follow.
Albert Camus stated it very simply – “Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead. Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.”
In other words, I can not make the world a better place alone. This is my little effort and I hope you will walk beside me.